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What's there too say, i'm a cute unique canadian female, who like video games, being a nerd, writting,reading, and loves my family. I have had a hard life growing up, but it has mead me who I am today, i may not have anyone read this blog, but it's a nice way too share thoughts and feelings on well whatever i feel like :)

Its good to suck


Any male will agree, that blowjobs are awesome. He gets off, no work for him, and it feels awesome. If your a female like me, who enjoys getting on your knees and a mouth full of little swimmers, you should already know, its not hard to keep a man wanting you, dying for your pleasure, and becoming a little puppet at the snap of a finger, and slurp of the tounge. If your not one of those females, you should try and learn. Not only will you also get enjoyment, you will also reap of the many benefits sperm has to offer.

First of all male semen is a natural anti-depressant, and natural anxiety reducer. It also improves quality of sleep, increases energy,improves concentration, memory, and mental alertness.
It Assists with pregnancy maintenance,
Increases female-initiated sexual behavior,and yes it reduces pain. Sperm is also packed with a huge kick of proteins and nutrients, that are very healthy, and hey its good for the skin too. Skip that shake and suck on something hard. Going down on your man not only has healthy benefits, but also makes for a healthy, sexual and closer relationship.


Your man will love you, and also love himself. The fact that his member gets you all hot and bothered, gives him a bout of confidence. He feels loved and cared for, because your willing to do a bit of mouth work to make him happy, He doesn’t need to be the only one getting off either, go ahead and play with yourself at the same time, it will be even more enjoyable. Females are very in sync with our own thoughts, so if you get yourself thinking “wow his cock is beautiful, I just want in my mouth right now, mmm soon hard” you can get yourself more into the mood. Your man will feel like the luckiest man alive, and if he makes you feel special, then you should return the favour, and hey if your tired or just want to be left alone, get on sucking and he will most likely roll over and pass out later, haha.

It might take a while, but just get yourself into it, watch his face as he is in total heaven. My bf is so sexy when he is enthralled with extasy, and the fact that I am making him smile that way eyes half closed, mouth open, makes me feel like a sexual she-god. He also feels empowered because it like his cock so much I don’t mind putting it to n my mouth for a taste, he feels sexy,loved, and like his woman truly cares, and wants him to be happy.

Going on your knees often, may lead a man to go down on one.


Walking away from narcistic abuse



Its hard sometimes yes, especially if you loved the individual, but walking away is the only way to win. I have walked away, yet still feel the abuse, but I know eventually I will have the last laugh.




I will be explaining the relationship, more so in my next post, as this one is about walking away.

Now it could be anyone in our life whether its a parent,child,lover,friend,sibling or other relative. Yes it can feel shameful to just up and leave, but why hold on to something that makes you feel worthless and BRI gs you down. If this person cared so much about you, they would lift you up,not push you down, where as they are still standing.



These people are weak, and will do anything to make you seem weaker, thus making them seem like the stronger and better person. They can’t accept their faults, and will never admit to being wrong,or their feelings of misdoubt. The only way they feel better about themselves is making sure you feel lower than them, or at their level. If you do not give them the attention or satisfaction that they deserve, you are immediately in the wrong. You can try all you want , but they will never change. If you tell them what kind of person they are,they will never admit it, and just tell you , your faults, changing the subject, so it turns back on you.

No one needs toxic people in their life, why surround yourself with negativity and drama??your better than that.

The best thing to do, is focus on the one person who truly matters, you know who that is??? Yes you, its you. Do what ever makes you happy, once you got rid of the narcissist,they can no longer control you. Life is once again in your hands.



Like the saying goes, the world is your oyster. Its your life, your ways, you,you,you. I’m not saying become egotistical, and make it all about you, but don’t allow anyone to make you feel down, and less than you are. We are all unique, and we are all individuals. No one can ever change who you are, so don’t let it be that way.


Smile, laugh and be near people who make you feel that way, and be proud you were strong enough to walk away from someone who made you feel the latter. No one is ever worth the headache and or/heartache

Walking away is the only way to show a narcissist that they no longer have you under their control.

On Writing: Stretch Yourself



The awesome thing about writing is that it probes us authors to explore in more ways than one. Not only does writing encourage us to seek out and discover uncharted territories in our imaginations and throughout the world, but we are beckoned to explore the vastly wide expanse of the available genres themselves.

I told Sarabeth just last night while doing research for a book I’ve been too afraid to write for years, “I’ve discovered a new love.”

She glared at me for a moment then said, “You shouldn’t say things like that to your wife.” (I didn’t realize that Jennifer Lopez was presenting a Golden Globe on the TV wearing a dress with a V-cut as wide as the Grand Canyon.)

I said, “No, not that. Biography-ing. I know it’s not a ward, but I feel like I’ve found a new niche.”

I thought I’ve already been stretching myself…

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Living with a narcissist



It took me a long time to realize, but the answers were there all the time. Narcissist’s seem like good genuine people at first. They make you feel special, and they seem to shine, and everyone loves them, what no one sees is they hide behind a mask.
It takes time, but eventually you cone from a “close bond”, to a mentally and emotionally abusive relationship. It took a long time for me to realize, what was going on. It wasn’t until we shared a home and lived together that I saw them behind closed doors. Eventually I was always brought down, nothing I did mattered and I was becoming less and less happy, and for a while I did believe it was my fault. I tried and tried, to make them happy and off my case, but nothing seemed to work. I should of seen this long ago because the way they acted in past friendships and relationships. They cheat, they lie, they do anything to be in the center of everyones attention. They can disregard you, for speaking your mind. They ac as if they can never do any wrong

I have been told I am selfish, when all I did, was for them. I have been told I am worthless, disrespectful, and that I was taking advantage of them. Then they turn around and wonder why I am being so hard to deal with, never listining to my voice of reason,since they were they ones who made me feel like crap. I stopped trying, I left and stopped most contact, my family isn’t on my side, because they have been manipulated and brain washed to believe, once agian ,as usual. I am in the wrong. I have become very misunderstood, and constantly talked down too, no one seems to take my side. It hurts, but not much I can do.
How do you know you are involved with a narcist??

1)they have a great need of attention and affection
2) if you try to prove them wrong, they will burn you
3)they are always right
4)they use others/their own pain and suffering for their own attention
5)they will talk about others behind their back,and make ppl think that person is a bad guy
7)they own you, and anything you have
8)be fake, lie,cheat, and gossip
9)don’t care about you unless you give them power
10) can’t be alone
11)bring you down, when your a good person
12) turn ppl against you

I could go on, but these are some factors.


If you ever end up abused, walk away and leave, its the only way you can win
I left, sure I am living with the circumstances, but it sure beats living in a home where I am always talked down too, and can’t do anything right. I just hope someday my family will see my side, and maybe the narc, will understand I loved them, I still do, but I just can’t live with you, and now that I seen who you truly are, it will be hard for me to see you as I once did.

I may follow up on this topic more, more details and what not.

A little sneak peak into chapter 6

Forest of Ghost Picture  (2d, fantasy, forest, environment)

*please note this was a rough draft that merely just came to me, and I didn’t exactly edit it much, just thought i would give all of you a little idea of what I am working on 


It wasn’t quiet, but it also wasn’t loud. The only sounds heard were those of the forest. Braelynne strolled through the dense woods, taking in the beauty it held.
“Is this what I have been missing for so long” she thought to herself.

She felt that she needed to take it all in, so she closed her eyes and extended her arms and started to spin. Braelynne took in the scents, and the songs of the forest. This was the one moment were everything finally felt right. All troubles seemed to vanish, and for a slight moment in time , dissapear completly. Suddenly, there came a noise. Braelynne ducked down and crawled in the grass behind a big oak tree.

“I hear they are looking for recruits” said one voice
“Yes, thats why we’re going there Skye” said the 2nd voice
“Well, I think the two of us are better as well just us, but if we must..”
“Look, not everyone is as evil and twisted as Kharle Drouf, remember what ma said about whats too come, we need all the allies we can get”
The two elfish people than walked off down the path and Braelynne could no longer hear them so she kept going on her own way.

“I wonder…what they were talking about, maybe these allies, and the recruiters are what I need too save this world from its own damnation? Then agian, most people would send me back to that evil wench that married my father for her costly reward. ” She let that idea, just slip away for at this slight moment it was her freedom keeping her sane.

Cha-boom chucka lucka

Lol, yup bored i am yoda i am not… heh. Just figured I would blab to the interwebs on account of my insomnia :). Hmm not whole lot is up with me currently looking for a 2nd part time job so I can be debt free and have money and not be ms.broke ass anymore :). This situation I am currently in being so totally moneyless is causing a big amount of stress….which isn’t exactly good for me. Stress causes my body to flap about on the floor like an epilictic fool…litteraly..well i am sure alcohol intake doesn’t help. Yah had a seizure a few weeks ago, my back still gets tender, but I havnt had a drink since… k cept once with my momma, but other than that I have been liqour free. I cant afford booze anyways heh. Hmmm sooo what else is going on you ask??? Well my sister and her bf broke up (yup another one bites the dust -heh srry brandy you go through alot of bf’s not that its a bad thing) They were doing pretty good, even talking about weddings and marriage and all that, but one night his true color really showed themselves and well they were pretty dark and unbearable. She had this awards dinner for her work, he was originally going to be her plus one, but before the dinner he went out and got really drunk and what to be appeared as really doped up on something other than pot. He was a little too much and Brandy didn’t want him to be an embarassment so she told him to stay home. This pissed him off terribly so during her awards dinner he kept sending her crude messages on Facebook saying he killed her snake and was going to kill her cat, and that he was wrecking her stuff, and how he they were done and how he wanted his “fucking money” that he put in her bank.account so they could get a camper. He didnt hurt the animals but did end up breaking our coffee table,fridge,vacuum,a wall outlet and our fridge. I would say that buddy has anger problems….. so hes not living with us anymore. I guess a few days ago too they were talking and he said “we can’t work things out unless you kick your sister out and stop helping her, so we can get a place of our own”…yah ok cuz thats the kind of person she is -_-. Lots of drama lol. Other than chaos and brokedom not much else is going on. Just same ol I guess. Oh hah this guy i’m friends with seems to be all omg grrr because i dont wanna be more than friends sorry man, but i do not wanna fuck… i dont even really want a relationship,yet. I dunno i miss it, but I just havn’t found a specail connection with someone and being single isn’t that bad anyways. I dont wanna end up with a freak like my sisters last ex either :p. I have my cat and my book and my hobbes and were all in a happy loving relationship lol. The book I am speaking of is a Storm of Swords and Hobbes is my stuffed tiger teddy bear I bought he is a good snuggler :), i think Misty gets a bit jeolous of him sometimes im all cuddled up too him and she tries getting all snuggled in closer…..silly putty tat. So yup thats about it. Oh yah btw I have been trying to make a character post for my Flames to Dust novel,but well… its a working progress ya’ll I have uhhm the dragons pretty much done,and I feel thats not even ready yet, I think I have to keep writting and get more groundwork on whom all the characters really are first, than my friends,it will be ready :). So yup gonna try and get some sleep we will see how good that goes, so peace out and g’night everyone.

Q and A with the Boomz PRT-1

1)WHAT COUNTRIES FOOD DO YOU LIKE THE MOST??  I do enjoy mexican food such as taco’s,burritos’ ET, and from what I can gather Holland food is amazing. Dutch spaghetti is da bomb!!!, and apparently the y have a national cheese museum, so i am gonna take a guess and say they really love their cheese…and so do I and my family HAHA, I am 50% Dutch too, so it all makes sense. It’s in my blood to be a cheese-o-holic xD

2) WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW??  Too hopefully be making some more money here soon… and to finally have at least one novel finished by the end of this year( that gives me a lot of time, but writing isn’t as easy as some of you may think..It takes a lot of time, patience, and determination. You also have to have your mind and imagination at a certain level were it can think of words, whats going to happen, plot changes, climax’s and all of that jazz.

3)WHAT ARE YOUR BELIEFS??  I am not entirely sure what I believe, or more so…what too believe. There is so many different idea’s,thoughts,belief’s and religions out there.All I know, is we have been brought to life some way, whether it’s some kind of god, by evolution, or we came from some kind of magical pixie dust. And if we were from a god…who made that god, if it’s from evolution, where did those first monkeys or whatever come from. How did we all just magically appear, and begin breathing, thinking,moving around and doing what regular human’s do?? I do believe in aliens though. You have to be pretty naive too think that were the only one’s out there.

4)WHERE ARE YOUR FAVORITE PLACES TOO SHOP??  I live pretty close to the worlds 2nd biggest mall(were the the 1st until Japan made one like a meter bigger or something like that. There is a few clothing stores there i go too such as Aeropostale or Urban Outfitter’s. Eb games is pretty cool( I am a bit of a gamer) there was a really good card shop that sold cheap magic cards(when I did play- can’t find anyone who plays anymore heh) . I also love Chapters, they help grow my small but slightly growing book collection. In West Ed( My mall they have a couple cool places to go and look at like this Millenium store, it has lots of cool things in it, dragon stuff, blades of Olympus (god oF WAR), AND LOTS OF THINGS FOR NERDS TOO BE LIKE OH MAH GOD…jizz in my pants!!! I love Victoria’s Secret but, I don’t make enough money to be shopping there :(. I work at Shopper’s now and have grown to love it, they have good sales, and I looove love loooove getting my points :). Value Village is one of my favorites though. It’s a second-hand store, but the clothes you get there, wow!!! HAHAHA lots of the stuff Is expensive brands that you only pay a couple bucks for. You could go spend 100$ there and come back with enough outfits to last you almost a year hahaha. I also love the rock and roll store in Niagara Falls on Clifton Hill. So many cool rock and roll t-shirts and merchandise, you could find pretty much any band you want there :).There is a few more but this answer is getting long…lol

5?WHICH FAMOUS PERSON FROM THE PAST WOULD YOU LIKE TO MEET??  Gosh so many… Johnny Cash, Kurt Cobain, Dimebag Darrell, basically anyone from the music industry that is now gone, but will never be forgotten. Abe Lincoln would be cool too, he did alot for the slaves and tried to make a difference in the world, but sadly got shot (I believe he got shot because he didn’t want to do what the secret service wanted him to do, because he was against it and thus.. got assassinated). Martin Luther King too that would be cool, and Helen Keller,Rosa Parks, Einstein,Mother Theresa man this list could go on 🙂 HAHA

6)IF YOU COULD BE INVISIBLE WHAT WOULD YOU DO??  Hmmmmm….. Rob a bank??, hahah jk…or am I…. haha. it would definetally be interesting. I could have fun pranking and scaring the crap out of some people. Go to Wentworth Miller’s and watch him shower 😉 ( not creepy at all.. haha) .I could spy on the government and see what they are hiding .Hahah go to my mom’s and leave little gifts for her, she will have no idea…”sorry hun, this joint just showed up didn’t mean to smoke it :P”  (her bf don’t like it)

7)IF YOU COULD OWN AN EXOTIC PET WHAT WOULD IT BE??  A Komodo Dragon would be cool ( I would love a real dragon, but who are we kidding right, they are only real in our imaginations 😦 ) . Or a cute and cuddly one like a Koala or Panda bear. A cool Exotic lizard or snake would be cool too, as long as it wasn’t very hostile or if it was poisonous it was de-venomized in a way.

8)WHAT MOVIE CAN YOU QUOTE WORD FOR WORD??  Don’t think I can quote a movie anymore, but when I was young I watched Lion King sooo many times I could.

9)WHAT WAS THE LAST BOOK YOU READ??  I am currently reading a Storm of Swords by George R.R. Martin. If you ever watched a Game of Thrones, it is a must read .You would have to start with the first one in the series called a Game of Thrones though. This one is the third book in the series, and I am trying too finish it before the 3rd season starts in March. The last book I finished was the first Hunger Games. It was awesome I gotta say, haha, wait actually no I read Married with Zombies by Jesse Patterson, I discussed it one of my earlier blogs 🙂

10)DESCRIBE WHAT A GOOD FRIEND MEANS TO YOU??  Well someone who can make you laugh, and is there when you need them. I hate people who are overly arrogant, and snobby. I am actually a pretty easy going person, so not alot will bother me. The only thing is if you treat people like trash, I will not like you haha

So this concludes the first segment of Q and A with The Boomz, I will try too make more of these and keep em all at ten questions each… if you want too add a q to one of my q and a’s feel free to leave one in the comment sectionb 🙂 :0 🙂